Saturday, August 14, 2010

Workout
NON - Beach Day


Food
1 Turkey and Cheese wrap with Mayo, Mustard, Jalapeno's tomato, black olives and lettuce
4 Cups Sun Chips
1/2 Seedless Watermelon
2 Cups Grapes
3/4 Gallon of Water

August 13, 2010

Work Out
14.5 MIles on the bike. 
I had planned a 20 mile bike ride and my back tire blew out at the 14.5 mile mark. I was SO bummed. Oh well!


Food
2 Small bowls of White Chicken Chili
3 cups of baby carrots and sliced cucumbers
Artichoke & Spinach dip w/ Asaigo Cheese
1+ Gallons of Water
Cobb Salad with Vinaigrette Dressing (Panera Bread)
1 Bowl of Broccoli Cheese Soup (Panera Bread)
1/2 of baguette (Panera Bread)
1/2 (small bag) kettle cooked chips (Panera Bread)
1 Lagre Dunkin' Donuts Coolata (YIKES).
1 Diet Caffeine Free Coke
1/2 bag of microwave popcorn. 


It was a good day. 

Thursday, August 12

Workout:
Ran 3 Miles


Food:
Approx 1/3 of a seedless watermelon
1 Turkey & CheeseWrap with Tomato Basil Flour "wrap"
1 Cup of Grapes
1 Bowl of White Chicken Chili
1 Small piece (approx. 2 oz) of Chuck Roast
1+ Gallon of Water
1/2 of Diet Rasberry Snapple

Wednesday, August 11

Work out:
None


Food:
1 Waffle
3 Scrambles Eggs
4 Pieces of Turkey Bacon
3 Tacos (Ground Turkey) no shell but did have Sour Cream! (So good)
1+ Gallon of Water

Tuesday, August 10

Workout:
Bike 12 Miles


Food:
2 Cups Watermelon
Chicken & Turkey Wrap (No Wheat, Flour or Bread)
Chicken Breast w/ Gorgonzola Cheese
1 Cup Hash-bown Casserole
1 Cup Spinach & Artichoke Casserole

The Never Ending Battle is Ending, I think...

Hello Friends! 


I have fluctuated with weight all my life. In spite of being a bit "heavy" for the majority of my life, I have always felt embarrassed and extremely insecure because of my appearance. 


The purpose of this blog is to publicly acknowledge this fear and face it head on for the first time in my life So, what's the best way to approach it? ANSWER: Disclose it to friends, family and followers in a total "glass house" approach. This is a big step for me and quite honestly, when I first contemplated this project I was pretty scared however; in my apprehensions -- my eyes were opened to the answer of the questions I have asked my self for so long: 


1.) Why am I embarrassed about how I look? 
2.) Why am I always obsessed with other people's perceptions of my appearance? 
3.) What can I do that will generate QUICK results to get the ideal weight and look, that people will like. 


These questions produce more questions that I've made temporary solutions for: Extreme and short term exercise plans and work outs, ridiculous diets and fasts that yield temporary results but produce more frustration than good and a deeper sense of dissatisfaction within myself and finally, failure. 


I don't consider myself obese or even extremely overweight but I am overweight. What it's all boiled down to for me is that my biggest secret concern is, "What are people going to think when they see me -- What is their impression of Dave Fitzgerald going to be?"


The fact is, that I DO care what other people think, it's in my DNA and I DO care about other people's perception of me. The thing wrong here though, is allowing myself to believe that other people's concerns and impressions are more important than me living my life and pleasing the 2 most important people in my world, God and my wife. I have let my "presumed impressions" of others about me, define me. The saddest part about this is that these "presumed impressions" usually only exist in my mind. I am actually playing out the video in my mind of what others are thinking of me, from my perception based solely on my appearance.  It's nothing more than false security. 


I am learning in my life, that no one is perfect. Everyone has struggles and personal issues with some "thing(s)," and I am no different. 


This is important to me because I have taken myself WAY to seriously in the past with this issue and it is time to deal with it head on!


For the next 40 days, I will post pictures, weigh-ins, food consumption and updates. In most cases, these will be daily updates. No crazy low calorie diets, no over the top exercise just 40 days of consistency with healthy foods, regular exercise and of course, rewards of ice cream, french fries and pizza...just in moderation for once. Ha! Why 40 Days? Hmmm, no exact reason but that's how many days Jesus fasted in the desert and it was the 1st number than jumped into my head so I am going with it. 


Ultimately, this is about doing it for me this time. Not to impress my friends or family. It is about setting a goal and staying the course for self determination and self discipline. 


8.9.10
263.5 lbs.

Workout 
Run 3 Miles


Food
100 Calorie Protien Shake
4 Cups of Peanuts
1 Bowl of Fruit (Blueberries / Strawberries) with Whipped Cream
1 Small bowl of Chicken Breast Salad
1 Turkey Breast & Cheese Wrap (No breading or flour)
1 Claussen Dill Pickle
1+ Gallon of Water